My Sweet John

I just need to take a few minutes and exude cheese about the absolute love of my life. John is my dearest friend, my one true love. He understands me. He knows be better than anyone on this earth. He loves our children, and he has made considerable sacrifices to place me and our family ahead of career or ambition. He is endlessly talented; physically coordinated, an accomplished professional, an avid reader, a man who can master foreign languages, a gifted chef. Fiscally responsible, I know we would be much better off if I always followed his financial advice. John can converse comfortabley with CEO's and street vendors, kings and paupers alike. John is loved by all who know him, and adored by me. His self mastery is admirable, his true love for his fellow men inspirational. The happiest place I can be on this earth is by his side. With him I feel I can do anything. I know he believes in me, although most of the time I can't understand why. His faith in God is unwavering, his desire to serve Him true. This is what most endures him to me, because with his eyes fixed toward heaven I know I can follow him anywhere.

The thought of remaining in Vietnam alone to finish this process does not frighten me. It saddens me. I want to go home, and be a mom to all my children. I want to sit with John at the dinner table and hear them tell me what happened that day that was good. I want to kneel with John and our children in prayer, and hear our children learn to speak with God. I want to sneak an episode of "the Daily Show" while we fold the laundry after the kids have been put to bed. I want to put my head on his shoulder when we turn out the lights at night, and giggle in bed as we tell stories about all the cute things our kids have recently said and done as we drift off to sleep.

I love you John. I feel lucky every day to be yours. I feel just as lucky that you'd have me, and that you've kept me all this time :) . I'm forever devoted to you and feel like a princess to be called your wife. Thank you for your faith in me, and in this huge adventure to bring Lucy home. I want us to come home together; but if not, I won't fear. Because I know you believe in me. And because you believe in me, I know I will be home with Lucy soon.